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Name: Christina (aka Ctina)
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Houston
Birthday: 5/29/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I love Jesus, my family (sometimes), my friends (most of the time), programming (changed my mind) and James Todd Smith aka LL Cool J (forever). My favorite thing to do now is spend as much time as possible with my baby cousin, Cameron, and write hilarious songs and poems. Oh and talking to my friends of course! Esp. Jenna and Janet bc those are my girls right there. I guess you could say I'm boy crazy. I do love the guys! Race doesn't matter to me. I also love to to shop and spends lots of daddy's $$$.
Expertise: a little bit of everything
Occupation: Student
Industry: Computers (Internet)
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  sweetlilgurl1300
Member Since:
6/6/2004
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| "You just annoy me way too much. I don't want to talk to you anymore!"
When you try to tolerate people, you just end up hurting yourself and
the other person (I.E. quote at the top). I tried so hard to get along
with someone because I thought we could be great friends on day. It
like all happened all so fast, and that person started tossing the word
"best friend" around. I tried so hard to just smile and ignore anything
that bothered me. Well, I failed and finally blew up at that person
today. I know that I could have handle it a whole lot better, but
that's in the past now. I said what I meant, and I meant what I said.
Sure, I could have said it in a more sympathetic manner and been a
little less harsh, but that's what happens when you're raised with a
family who is always fighting/arguing. I've taken anger management
twice, but it obviously is not working for me. Am I going to apologize
to that person? In all honesty, I'm not sure if I want to...
I am super stressed out, and I don't know what to do with myself. I've
become this study/work monster all of a sudden, and I'm sure it's
scaring some people. Everyone thinks I'm this happy, chilled out person
who doesn't give a damn about what happens with my future. Well, I do
actually. I'm going to college. I want to have a successful career. I
make good grades in school now although I don't seem like the type of
person who would. It's the truth though. I have the report cards to
prove it. Anyways, there's a shitload of projects due this week and
then next week is finals. I'll be so glad when it's all over, and I can
just sit back and chill for Christmas break.
Good luck with your finals everyone!
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| These are entries from my MySpace blog
that I posted over the week. Lol sorry guys I'm getting addicted again,
but I'm going to copy my entries over whenever I have the time. Who
reads this shiz anyways???
Wednesday, November 23
I got to spend the whole weekend and then some hanging out with quite a
few of my friends. Here's a recap: Friday night I went to the movies
with Jenna and Matt to see Derailed. I went shopping on Saturday, and I
got a bunch of shoes and some clothes. Later that night I went to the
movies with Janet to see Prime. That movie was funny. On Sunday I went
to church with my family then we all went to the mall so Jenna could
pick me up. I went to Sephora and bought some makeup while I was
waiting. After that, Jenna came, and we left the mall and went to her
house. Megan showed up. We chilled for a litltle bit, got ready, and
went to the Midnight Rodeo. Ashley, Nicole, and their friend Mark all
met us there. Then later on we ran into Clint, Meagan, and Meagan's
friend Courtney. It was all pretty fun. Jenna and I hung out on Monday.
We ran an errand and then went to the mall. There were like no people
our age there so we came home and watched "Save the Last Dance". It was
like a flash back into the 90s. Love that movie! lol Yesterday, we
kinda just dragged around her house doing nothing. Soap operas were on
tho! I ended up taking a nap. Then we went to the soccer game, but I
had to leave early so that I'd be home in time for my cousin, DeAnna,
to pick me up. I was supposed to keep Cameron busy while she got her
hair braided, but I was sooo tired that I crashed on the sofa. He bit
my nose twice while I was asleep, and it's still fuckin' sore!!!
Anyways, I'm back at home now and still tired. So I think I'm going to
go take another nap then hit up Wal-mart....
Friday, November 25
It sucked some major ass!!!!  We starved like all day long and finally got to eat dinner after 6pm.
We would have been able to eat a little sooner, but the police found my
stupid aunt so we had to stop and figure things out. She knows how to
ruin a mood even when she's not around. Gosh, that woman pisses me
off!!!!!!!  Well right now she's living by a dumpster with the rest of her crack buddies. Whatever! I got to talk to alot of my friends though. It was nice to hear from people that I haven't talked to in a while. Others have managed to piss me off quite a bit. I can't stand people who focus on themselves all of the goddamn time.
It's selfish, self-centered, and just flat out not cool. I was having a
really bad day, but I couldn't even bring it up. Sooo thanks alot!!!!! 
I couldn't even drink myself out of my misery. I was so upset that I
couldn't even get a buzz from the vodka and beer I drank. Hopefully
today I'll find something interesting to do, and then tomorrow I'll
probably hang out with Matt and whoever else pops up.
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| One good thing happened today. I got my blood test results back, and
it's normal!!!! I was so afraid that something else was wrong. The rest
of my day was stressful as usually. I don't know how much more of this
I can take. I'm alot stronger than last year though. I've come a very
long way, and I don't plan to let anyone get in the way.
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| I don't see what the deal is with people being fuckin' retarded towards me. I haven't said or done anything to anyone!! I'm not one to put up with shit like that, especially right now, so now I'm just even more stressed out from fighting back. Can't wait for Thanksgiving and Christmas break to get away from it all for a little while. I need a break soon, or I'm gonna lose it. My dad is being his normal self, putting me down like always, and my mom is oblivious to life in general I guess. I just wish they would get some sense and started acting like parents much less adults. I wish people could experience all the shit I go through every day. I'm so drained from it all. If it weren't for my supportive friends, I'd probably have run away from it already. They're probably the only reason I'm still here and still not giving up on myself. So thanks to you all who care. | | |
| I only have to go to school until 4th hr today (11am) because I'm going
to Austin!!! I'm super glad to be going out of town again this weekend.
I hate being at home with my dysfunctional familia so YIPEE!!!!!!!
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